The New Car!

Since I was 16 years old I had always dreamed about owning a Mustang. My parents both owned them when they met. Mom's first car was a '68 green Mustang and my dad owned a blue '65 Mustang. My mother sold her car to her brother and my dad to buyer out of the classifieds. Years later my uncle gave my brother Eddie mom's car back and he has been restoring it ever since. I remember my dad trying his sense of humor on me one Christmas by giving me a minature Mustang radio as a present. Finally a few weeks before I graduated from High School I bought a beautiful V6 Atlantic blue Mustang with light gray interior. I was 17 and could not believe I had a car but not just any car, the car of my dreams in my favorite color. I can still see my mom taking canola oil from the kitchen and anointing it and praying that God would protect me in it. I drove that car for 11 years and in the 3 accident I had none of them were serious and I left without a bruise. I took that car with me to the University and to Bible College in Jackson, Mississippi. My friends and I did many road trips to New Orleans, Memphis, and on chorale trips to Alabama. I cried a lot tears in that car when I felt like my heart had just been squashed. I prayed a lot of prayers while that CD player blasted out my favorite choir tunes. I had many serious conversations with friends and a tons of laughs that I will probably remember as long as I live. There were many late night fast food runs and trips to Starbucks for Passion Iced Tea Lemonade when I felt stressed. It was a faithful car and had its battle scars to prove its loyalty. It never had a major break downs until just a few months ago. Things just started snowballing and after awhile I almost didnt feel safe driving it. I had to get another one.

After going to a dealership here in Tucson, searching online, and talking on the phone with salesmen in frustration I finally found her. I named her Roxxie when I went to pick her up at the dealership in Tempe. Roxxie was a bright lips stick red 2009 Mustang with the same gray interior as my blue one. As my old car and my new car sat next to each other on the parking lot I couldnt help but feel so blessed. God knew what I needed and what I could afford. After 11 years I was getting another car that I was just as crazy about as my first one. It was still bittersweet driving off with my window down seeing my blue car quickly leaving my range of sight but it was a new day and time for a change!

Seriously?!?! Is it already August??!?!

It's insane how 2009 is more than half way over! I am really am thankful because God has been good and is doing great things in the lives of my family members and at Faith Tabernacle Church. As of a few weeks ago I started playing the piano in Spanish Church. I think I always kind of figured that I would just be someone who would teach others to play the piano and not really play myself. It seems that God has other plans and I am excited about being used in God's kingdom. I believe there are going to be many souls won in our Spanish Ministry and I dont think it will be very long till we have a blow out service just like we do in the main sanctuary on Sundays!!

I have been having such a great time hanging out with my older church friends. We have been going to starbucks in the middle of the week and just talking and laughing till after midnight. I can't thank God enough for the wonderful friends He has put in my life!

I'm still writing my book and am believeing it will be finished soon. I know its what God wants me to do its just been an uphill battle. I believe this will be the key to unlock the will of God in my life. I just have to finish doing my part. There are a lot of changes about to take place in our church that will affect a lot of us but I pray they are good changes and everything works out for the best! The future is bright because Jesus Christ our Saviour is the Light!

Happy Birthday To Me!

So I survived my 29th Birthday Monday! Can you believe it? 29!!!! Its just insane! No doubt I am thankful to have had such an amazing life but most of all to have Almighty God be in it! I really am blessed to go to such a great church and have such thoughtful friends. A couple of us got together at the house and had some pizza and cake. It was last minute but it turned out great.

Last week was Arizona District Sr Camp. I was a counselor again for the third year in a row. Bro Darin Sargent preached and it really felt this year like I was 16 again back when I was a camper. It was a tradition it seemed that every year at camp there was at least one night when God would move so strongly that the preacher wouldnt get to preacher. Monday was the first service and God moved so strongly that Bro Sargent almost didnt preacher. Then later on that week God completely took over and ministered to so many. This year in particular I felt like my needs were being met and I was being ministered. It seemed like every service there was something inside of me that just felt like crying and pouring out my soul to the King of Glory. There were so many fun times too like the night us counselors silly stringed the girls in the dorm. So far this 2009 Senior Camp goes down as being the best so far.

The Wedding

I recently attended Shawna and Anthony Allen's wedding last Saturday. It was a beautiful ceremony but the most amazing part about it was I was able to see a lot of people I hadnt seen for years. Shawna's uncle Robert is married to my aunt Maggie so I have known Shawna since she was 2 years old. My mom and her mom have been close friends over the years and they are actually the ones that conspired to get my aunt Maggie and uncle Robert together. I got to see David and Cindy Woodrum and their kids. I had never seen Jasmine and she is 8 years old now! David used to be my Sunday school teacher. I believe he is still teaching at Brother Haney's church in Stockton. Belen and Roy were also there and believe it or not when I was 2 years old I was in their wedding as the flower girl. That was before my accident so I have pictures of me still walking in a cute pink dress with a halo of flowers on my head. We all attended Brother Croy's church at one time and that's where our roots are. Sister Croy who is related to the groom was also there. She is as classy as she has always been. It was great to see the pastor's wife I grew up with. So many memories!

Dont date a loser

Don't settle for a loser
The first guy that comes your way.
For the one that has no job and on every date makes you pay.
After the first date when you have to treat for pizza.
Make sure its his name that's really on the visa.
Dont be so desperate just to be someones wife.
That a after the honeymoon you regret it for the rest of your life!
If hes been engaged three times and married twice
Don’t be the next fool that gets hit by the wedding rice.
If all the loser wants is for you to help him support his six kids and be his sugar mama
Don’t be the idiot that gets caught up in all that baby mama drama!
If he is bilingual, illegal, and always wants to be in control.
Remind him that you ain't afraid to dial the number to the border patrol!
If you just met your man after he posted bail
Make sure you are ready to write your next check out to the Pima county jail!
If the guy has a job that pays him under the table
Make sure you check his records because he is probably not mentally stable.
If he is too young to drive you on a date.
Be ready to spend the next 5-10 years because of your jail bait!
Don’t settle for a loser that in life wont go very far.
Go for a guy that has a career and doesn't drive his mom’s car.
I'm not saying you have to be a gold digging girl.
Just don’t be deceived when a guy says he can give you the world.
Looks wont last long, they will in time fade away.
Go for a guy that has depth and that wont eventually turn gay.

Arizona Campmeeting

This past week I attended Arizona Campmeeting. Sadly I was not there long enough and the one actual service that I did go to there was no preaching. God decided to do His thing and it was exactly what I needed! The choir sang "I've Gotta Feeling Everythings Gonna Be Alright!" I remember the same thing happened at Campmeeting in 2003 and the place came unglued!

There were some high moments and some low moments but overall I am thankful I was able to attend. I got to see some of my Amazing friends at the lock in and hung out with some of them at Cheesecake Factory Wednesday night.

The Cruise!

So on this cruise I got a little wild! We rode the roller coaster and I couldnt believe I was so determined to ride it that I flung my legs over the top of the seat and dropped myself in. You would not believe how many bruises I now own! hahha. Aimee and I did Aretha Franklins RESPECT for Karaoke one night. I chased down a guy who looked liked Waldo and took a picture of him. I had fun doing the Hand Jive and making up pizza dance moves. I ate 3 lobster tails and shrimp one night at dinner and ordered chocolate and cheesecake from room service at 2 am. I had a great time and got some rest in the middle of it all as well.

Post from the Sea

Hello...I am writing from the Carnival Elation somewhere off the coast of Southern California. We will be back in San Diego tomorrow and I should be back in Tucson by the evening. I have had the most Amazing vacation. God really knew how much I needed it! I miss my dog Simba but I am sure he will be super excited to see us tomorrow. Aimee and I have had fun watching all the drunk people do Karaoke and taking pictures of the guy in the striped orange shirt Eddie called Waldo! The food has been soo great and the free room services we have ordered almost every day has been a treat! I dont know how we will ever go back to everyday life again! hahah..Pictures are soon to come!

My Heart Decieved Me Yet Again

Its like I cant even breathe
In a moment I actually have forgotten how.
The sudden pain in my chest is overwhelming
There is this sound in my head that wont stop ringing.
I cant keep my mind focused on anything I do
It just seems so unfair that in my life I cant have you.
I keep reaching but you dont reach back to me
The more I try the more I mess things up and become more unhappy.
I feel tortured or at least thats the way it tends to seem.
And no matter what I do being good enough is nothing more than a dream.
If there was something I knew to do surely I would find a way to get it done.
But you dont even have a clue and in your world the earth still revolves around the sun.
To you everything is as its always been.
But I can not be content with just being the friend.
I hate that my mind has labeled you Amazing and has decided to still go on this journey knowing how it would end.
Knowing that I could not let you go.
Knowing you would hurt me over and over again.
Knowing my feelings for you were out of my control.
So I take a step back.
I give you the space I feel that you lack.
I refrain myself from doing what my heart desires to do.
And that is spill my soul and tell everything to you.
In the end what good could become of it all?
When I knew my eyes had decieved me and I would eventually take this fall?

M.I.A.

Soo..i have been M.I.A from my blog for quite sometime. So here is what has been going on with me...

First of all I am going on a cruise May 24th! My family and my dear friend Aimee, and Bro and Sis Zamorano will be going to San Diego and Catalina Island for 4 days on Carnival Cruise line! I have been on a cruise before so I know it is going to be amazing!


There have been tons of church functions going on lately. First it was District conference, then Youth convention, and last Saturday was Uplink in Casa Grande. All three were pretty amazing. I have to say though that I just want to relax for a while! I have been having great fun with some of the new members of our church. Life over all is pretty Good. God has blessed!

I seriously need to finish writing my book. I have everything I need just lacking the motivation! Lord help me with that!