Thursday, May 28, 2009

The Cruise!

So on this cruise I got a little wild! We rode the roller coaster and I couldnt believe I was so determined to ride it that I flung my legs over the top of the seat and dropped myself in. You would not believe how many bruises I now own! hahha. Aimee and I did Aretha Franklins RESPECT for Karaoke one night. I chased down a guy who looked liked Waldo and took a picture of him. I had fun doing the Hand Jive and making up pizza dance moves. I ate 3 lobster tails and shrimp one night at dinner and ordered chocolate and cheesecake from room service at 2 am. I had a great time and got some rest in the middle of it all as well.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Post from the Sea

Hello...I am writing from the Carnival Elation somewhere off the coast of Southern California. We will be back in San Diego tomorrow and I should be back in Tucson by the evening. I have had the most Amazing vacation. God really knew how much I needed it! I miss my dog Simba but I am sure he will be super excited to see us tomorrow. Aimee and I have had fun watching all the drunk people do Karaoke and taking pictures of the guy in the striped orange shirt Eddie called Waldo! The food has been soo great and the free room services we have ordered almost every day has been a treat! I dont know how we will ever go back to everyday life again! hahah..Pictures are soon to come!

Friday, May 15, 2009

My Heart Decieved Me Yet Again

Its like I cant even breathe
In a moment I actually have forgotten how.
The sudden pain in my chest is overwhelming
There is this sound in my head that wont stop ringing.
I cant keep my mind focused on anything I do
It just seems so unfair that in my life I cant have you.
I keep reaching but you dont reach back to me
The more I try the more I mess things up and become more unhappy.
I feel tortured or at least thats the way it tends to seem.
And no matter what I do being good enough is nothing more than a dream.
If there was something I knew to do surely I would find a way to get it done.
But you dont even have a clue and in your world the earth still revolves around the sun.
To you everything is as its always been.
But I can not be content with just being the friend.
I hate that my mind has labeled you Amazing and has decided to still go on this journey knowing how it would end.
Knowing that I could not let you go.
Knowing you would hurt me over and over again.
Knowing my feelings for you were out of my control.
So I take a step back.
I give you the space I feel that you lack.
I refrain myself from doing what my heart desires to do.
And that is spill my soul and tell everything to you.
In the end what good could become of it all?
When I knew my eyes had decieved me and I would eventually take this fall?

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Soo..i have been M.I.A from my blog for quite sometime. So here is what has been going on with me...

First of all I am going on a cruise May 24th! My family and my dear friend Aimee, and Bro and Sis Zamorano will be going to San Diego and Catalina Island for 4 days on Carnival Cruise line! I have been on a cruise before so I know it is going to be amazing!

There have been tons of church functions going on lately. First it was District conference, then Youth convention, and last Saturday was Uplink in Casa Grande. All three were pretty amazing. I have to say though that I just want to relax for a while! I have been having great fun with some of the new members of our church. Life over all is pretty Good. God has blessed!

I seriously need to finish writing my book. I have everything I need just lacking the motivation! Lord help me with that!