Im Okay Now....

Ever since I moved back to Tucson from Jackson, Ms in May of 2005 I have desperately wanted to leave. I had come from the rich green South where God had done some awesome things in my life. I wanted so bad to go back to that wonderful place but now I was looking for an escape and released from so many haunting memories of the past. Tucson although it is where I was born and raised didnt seem to want to make peace with me. Here in the desert is where all of my hopes and dreams seemed to come to die. I just wanted to start all over again somewhere else, somewhere where no one knew who I was. I love my family very much but there just didnt seem like there was really a place or a purpose for me. Opportunity had come up but in prayer God let me know that I need to just stay put. I felt so confused and frustrated but I didnt feel like there was much for me to do.

I realized something the other day. I had come home late from a day with some of my most amazing church friends. We had went to the mall and then to Mamma's Pizza our new little hang out. We didnt do anything particularly significant but yet it was soo much fun. We laughed and laughed and that night while lying in bed it hit me that I would be so crushed if I ever had to leave Tucson. I had finally found friends that really loved me and were there for me unconditionally. They had been there all along I just had never thought to pull down the wall I had built around me. I learned to forgive and let go. It felt so great. I finally belonged and what a blessing! What a reason for Thanksgiving! Even when we arent good, God is Always good!

Disappointment

Sooo...the elections are over and we now have a new president elect. I knew that Obama would probably win the election with all the reports and news polls but I really had hoped that they were wrong. What are the people of this great country thinking to vote for a man with no morals, who thinks that he can negociate with terrorist, and its okay to kill unborn babies?!?!? Dont get me wrong I think its amazing that we have the first African-American president. It really was a historical day in America when i think of the civil rights movement of the 60's and the price that so many have paid to pave this road. We really have come a long way. I heard someone say this now makes it possible for the first Jewish president, the first Hispanic and Asian president, the first woman president, and then I heard them say the first homosexual president!!! That's when I freaked! I realized that it might actually be possible if the Lord tarries. I can't even imagine a day when a Gay person could be leading our nation. It seems that the United States of America has forgotten God and we are headed in that direction. I'm disappointed! Then there are moments when I am plain outraged! Of course I start to get a little red in the face when I heard that Governor Sarah Palin was the reason that John McCain lost the election. Palin was the best thing that could have happened to the GOP ticket!! No doubt she had her faults like any human being does. But really!!! Welll...we can only hope and pray that things turn around but the bigger news is that Jesus is Coming Soon!!! There isnt a whole lot of time left. These are the signs of the times!

The Holy Ghost Is All I Need!

God didnt give me a perfect smile or a winning physical appearance..
He didnt grant me the brain surgeon or the rocket scientist's intelligence.
I didnt get the bright eyes and the outgoing personality.
i didnt get the corner office job that pays the six figure salary.
God didnt bestow to me great fashion sense and style.
I didnt get blessed with the athletic ability to win the Olympic quarter mile.
I didnt recieve the talent to draw or paint something as grand as the Mona Lisa.
I'll never have a cooking show that can do anything more than order pizza.
I was not given the eloquence of a powerful political orator.
I'll never win a contest for being a tidy organizer.

Yet in all of my short comings there are a few things I know that I can be.
A bible study teacher that can point a lost soul to calvary.
An encourager that can uplift a heart who is experiencing untolerable grief and pain.
A prayer warrior who knows how to touch heaven when they call upon His Name!
A person of faith who can lay hands on the someone who isnt feeling well.
An altar worker who wont stop until a soul is saved from hell
A praise singer who refuses to sing unless its under God's annointing.
A person who can help usher in the presence of God with their praise and worshipping.
God gave me the precious gift of the Holy Ghost.
With that I can do anything and in the end isnt that what matters most?