The Cruise!

So on this cruise I got a little wild! We rode the roller coaster and I couldnt believe I was so determined to ride it that I flung my legs over the top of the seat and dropped myself in. You would not believe how many bruises I now own! hahha. Aimee and I did Aretha Franklins RESPECT for Karaoke one night. I chased down a guy who looked liked Waldo and took a picture of him. I had fun doing the Hand Jive and making up pizza dance moves. I ate 3 lobster tails and shrimp one night at dinner and ordered chocolate and cheesecake from room service at 2 am. I had a great time and got some rest in the middle of it all as well.

Post from the Sea

Hello...I am writing from the Carnival Elation somewhere off the coast of Southern California. We will be back in San Diego tomorrow and I should be back in Tucson by the evening. I have had the most Amazing vacation. God really knew how much I needed it! I miss my dog Simba but I am sure he will be super excited to see us tomorrow. Aimee and I have had fun watching all the drunk people do Karaoke and taking pictures of the guy in the striped orange shirt Eddie called Waldo! The food has been soo great and the free room services we have ordered almost every day has been a treat! I dont know how we will ever go back to everyday life again! hahah..Pictures are soon to come!

My Heart Decieved Me Yet Again

Its like I cant even breathe
In a moment I actually have forgotten how.
The sudden pain in my chest is overwhelming
There is this sound in my head that wont stop ringing.
I cant keep my mind focused on anything I do
It just seems so unfair that in my life I cant have you.
I keep reaching but you dont reach back to me
The more I try the more I mess things up and become more unhappy.
I feel tortured or at least thats the way it tends to seem.
And no matter what I do being good enough is nothing more than a dream.
If there was something I knew to do surely I would find a way to get it done.
But you dont even have a clue and in your world the earth still revolves around the sun.
To you everything is as its always been.
But I can not be content with just being the friend.
I hate that my mind has labeled you Amazing and has decided to still go on this journey knowing how it would end.
Knowing that I could not let you go.
Knowing you would hurt me over and over again.
Knowing my feelings for you were out of my control.
So I take a step back.
I give you the space I feel that you lack.
I refrain myself from doing what my heart desires to do.
And that is spill my soul and tell everything to you.
In the end what good could become of it all?
When I knew my eyes had decieved me and I would eventually take this fall?

M.I.A.

Soo..i have been M.I.A from my blog for quite sometime. So here is what has been going on with me...

First of all I am going on a cruise May 24th! My family and my dear friend Aimee, and Bro and Sis Zamorano will be going to San Diego and Catalina Island for 4 days on Carnival Cruise line! I have been on a cruise before so I know it is going to be amazing!


There have been tons of church functions going on lately. First it was District conference, then Youth convention, and last Saturday was Uplink in Casa Grande. All three were pretty amazing. I have to say though that I just want to relax for a while! I have been having great fun with some of the new members of our church. Life over all is pretty Good. God has blessed!

I seriously need to finish writing my book. I have everything I need just lacking the motivation! Lord help me with that!

Pictures

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Wedding

These are some pictures from Sis Monica and Peter Ferriera's wedding today. My brother Eddie was in the wedding.

Picture of the Youth Group

Randomness!

Soo...our youth group went to the Pima County Fair and we encountered this Llamas and we had to take a picture because my brother Eric is always asking guys how many llamas he would have to pay to give them my hand in marriage. Its a pretty hysterical joke if you ask me. PJ has the picture of the two of us actually in front of the llamas. I'll see if I can put that up.





This is a picture of Simba Eric's dog and my grandfathers female named Blanca. We brought her over for a week and we believe there is going to be puppies! We keep laughing because the joke is that Eric is going to be a grandpa! The picture is blurry because its from behind the sliding glass door.



Here is PJ and I at the Fair and some random guy in the back.

Seasons

Do you remember when black and white polka dots were in style? It wasn't that long ago when most Pentecostal girls were sporting this new trend. I bought this amazing shirt at one of the department stores and paid a little bit more than what I normally would have because I figured I would get a lot of use out of it. I did in fact wear that shirt including the matching headband and purse to many Sunday night services and youth functions. The other day I came across it in my closet and realized I had forgotten all about it. I haven't worn that shirt in months! Its still amazing but I have gotten myself into the zebra pattern and the other day I bought myself a cute skirt and hounds tooth purse on Ebay! That seems to be the latest thing but I have a feeling it wont be for long! Something else just as brilliant will be along to replace it in the fashion world. I don't consider myself trendy but since my mother has been on my case to stop wearing what she considers my "grandma clothes" I have tried to look as presentable as possible. She commented the other day on the fact she was proud I am starting to dress better. Well that just made me feel a bit better.

So I was thinking the other day how my life sometimes is like this huge world of Fashion trends. Things are never quite consistent. One style comes and another goes. My life is always changing no matter how at moments I feel like its mundane and motionless. Its more like what the scripture calls Seasons in the book of Ecclesiastes. A few months ago I was so ecstatic with things that I wanted to take all those amazing instances and freeze them into a little jar so I could keep them for always. I didn't want anything to change. Now those moments have pasted and its a new day. Everything is different now and its not necessarily bad or good, its just time for a new season, a new trend to make an appearance. There are people that I was super close to and now I hardly talk to them. They have kind of been replaced by other friends and other experiences. It doesn't mean those friends or experiences are gone forever because most trends tend to make their way back in the fashion world at sometime in the future.

No Other Name

Our annual Easter Drama No Other Name is coming up again and its sure to be as amazing as always!! There's lots for me to say right now but I have engrossed myself in Facebook so I havent put much thought into my blog sadly. Hopefully a real post will follow soon!